Nathier...

I'm in shock. I can't believe it.

On my way home from campus earlier today I saw a guy lying on the side of the road with blood on his face while medics attended to him. I tried to see what was going on, I felt bad about the accident. After I was a short distance from the accident, I forgot about it. Accidents happen all the time, right? Usually we don't bother taking note because we don't know the person.

I got a call from a friend after 12am. Just over an hour ago. She asked me if I knew Nathier. She proceeded to tell me he had been in accident and that the doctors said he was brain dead. I couldn't believe it. I've been crying and staring at his Facebook profile for the last hour which has gone by so slowly. I've been told they going to take him off life support if nothing changes by 5am. I am really praying so much for a miracle. Nathier is an awesome, chilled, sweet funny guy. I've known him since I was 2nd year. We both used to download series and stuff in the White Lab. When I'd see him at campus he always looked happy, I'd either get a friendly hug or hello. Just this week I saw him quite a few times. I was in one of tutorials hanging with my friends who were tutoring, he was one of the tutlings. I went to speak to him for a bit and then he accused me distracting him, haha. I so wasn't! He is a very happy person, definitely no dull moments around him. l I can't accept that he has been taken so soon. I don't know whether to use IS or WAS. I don't want to use was, I haven't given up and won't until the last second! He is third year in Information Systems . He has a bright future ahead of him. I just don't want to believe it. Please God , give us a miracle. I wish I could make a deal with God that if I keep my eczema forever and then we get Nathier back :(

My fragile heart is breaking more and more. I can't handle the bad news anymore. I really need an everlasting hug. I need to know that everything is going to be ok and that everything does happen for a reason. That all this pain and heartbreak, it serves some sort of purpose.

Things that irritate me

The human race in itself is irritating, for creatures of such intellect we really live in a messed up world.

Girls are always thinking about what they want in a guy, they have this image of this ideal guy with a long list of traits they want in a guy. So now I've been thinking about things I don't want in a guy. Most are trivial, but when you are challenged with many trivial matters it just becomes too much.

• You must be able to type reasonably well. I don't mind shorthand here and there. I use short hand myself sometimes so I can't discriminate entirely. I can't stand alternating caps and the non-existence of vowels. I recently came across someone typing the word "fine" as "f9". It was a near death experience, that doesn't even spell "fine" , it spells "fnine". I've also been asked a few times "wud", despairingly I would think the person forgot to finish their sentence. In fact they were asking me "What you doing". ARE YOU SERIOUS? I definitely could not marry someone who types so poorly, I may possibly die from annoyance.

• When guys wear their pants so low you can see their underpants. Why? I just don't understand why. No I don't want to see your Spongebob underpants. They clearly can afford a belt as their jeans says "Levis" or "Armani".

• Earrings. Do I even need to justify?

• Smoking. It tastes awful. Smells awful. It's expensive. Harms your body. (Doesn't have the effects of smoking weed.) I don't see the benefits at all.

• Sensitive. By this I don't mean that guys can't be sensitive, yet their sensitivity needs some sort of reasoning. Unlike girls, who can have all sorts of emotions without any logical reasoning. (I'm sure this is rule).

• No ambition. The type of guy who just lazes around, has no ambition to become someone or do something with his life.

• Arrogance. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! DIE!

• Lack of balls. The type of guy that doesn't stand up for you. Gets dominated by practically everyone.

This is all I can think of right now...