yoh got so emo while making the cake, think a few tears might have fallen in, maybe thats why its so salty. Hahaha Just kidding ^^
but wat a day of emoness. Like seriously how do you function with the constant thought of regret running through your mind 24/7. I do wanna pass varsity but yaaaaa , dont know how im gonna do it in my current state. Skip most of my lectures and the ones i do go to i dont listen anyways. Sigh. I dont wana accept and move on - screw that! Just wanna crawl into a hole for a while and come out in a few months and then maybe everything will be ok again. just maybe... I guess I could take anti depressants, but thats like sooo bleh. Hate the idea of being artificially happy, it sounds so retarded!!!!!! and screw the idea of giving up, I aint gonna do that!!!!!!!!!!!!! I gots motivation, yes I do!
I think Im traumitised, like how retarded can a girl be!!!!!!!!! Grrrrrrr Makes me angry. India made me THINK soooooooo much, and MISS soooooooo much and REGRET too! my word!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I guess it only hit me, cos it was the first time I was away from everything , which I hadnt been before.
sigh :'( why why why why why why why does one realise things when its too late????????????? Convinced im being punished and it totally sucks. And theres nothing i can do!!!! Gonna sulk until no more sulking can be done.xoxo
Emo Ne
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for cute!
ReplyDeleteHey.. I think i ended up here looking for a cute Pon & Zi pic.. And well, just wanted you to know my baking sucks so much too.. LOL..
ReplyDeleteArtificial happiness is horrible, but I'm pretty sure happiness wont come around and smack you in the face if you keep covering yourself with depressing darkness. Make a list of things that you like doing/make you happy, and try to do them as much as possible, nd im sure u will feel loads better.. ;D