Betrayal and Deceit

These are common actions from the people we least expect to hurt us. Usually when i become friends with someone, I give it my all. I'd basically do anything for them and be there when they need me most.

But what I've learnt over the years, you seriously can't trust anyone. I've been hurt twice really bad now, and it sucks big time. Are people too stupid too see what they doing is wrong? Well that must be true, else they would not have done it. I just will never understand how one can be so inconsiderate.

Clearly I put way too much effort into friendships and in the end all those years of friendship meant NOTHING to them? Someone you see practically everyday for a years, just meant nothing? I just can't accept that people are this heartless. Or maybe I'm just too nice. I can deal with honesty - even if it hurts , but its when lies and going behind people's backs that kills me.

I'm not saying I'm the perfect friend or someone that can be trusted fully. But I try to be as close as possible. Because I'd never want to cause the hurt that others imposed upon me. Never. I know that hurting someone can't always be avoided that I know, but those that hurt me were totally unnecessary. I think people need to learn to be more conscious of there actions and not only think of themselves.

Goodluck to those retards...

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Forgot to dedicate a post to Twilight

Oh hail the awesome Twilight. Yeah right.

It was a terrible movie, It has potential to be so much more. It was just bad acting, poor camera work, and guys that shouldn't take there shirts off because his pale skin is blinding.

I don't get it. Why are people so obsessed with it? Why? There are a million more movies that are better than this piece of crap. I can't believe that New Moon made so much money in there opening week. Are you serious? I so don't wanna watch it, but I do want to see what the hype is about. I watched Avatar 3D the other day and that was an extremely good movie, I cant imagine how New Moon has made more money than a REAL quality movie.

Girls are so naive to what the world shows them. They watch these movies and suddenly they think they vampires and become obsessive to find a guy like Edward or Jacob. They don't exist. One day they will learn that. One day. And it will hurt. The media makes little girls dream way beyond reachable goals. Stupid Media

I guess Jacob is somewhat pretty. But I definitely am NOT turned on. I just don't see it.

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Hello Fellow Blog

Hmm...I guess I haven't written in a really long time. Kinda missed just blogging all my emotions out.

I saw that I have 4 followers! How cool :) Haha

What I've been up to lately :

Well University ended, made it into third year, YAY! So as long as everything goes well next year, I'l be a graduate in Information Systems. But then i'm so lost on what to do after graduation, do I study honours? Do I study Medicine or do I go overseas? I hate decisions, because I fear making mistakes, I can't help but dwell on my regrets. Grrrr, pisses me off SO much. Sigh . I have three rewrites to write. 3! I hope I can somehow pass them all. Insha-Allah

I've started exercising! :) Finally, but I still eat like a vulture, so not really losing any weight, which was one of the aims of exercising aswell! I just love eating too much, I find so much joy in putting that burger in my mouth :D . Practising the splits everyday, I've improved, but still have an extremely long way to go, maybe a year? :/

Spiritual changes...One aspect I've worked on alot during these holidays. I make Salaah, not all 5 everyday. But most. I havent gone one day without making for probably a month or more? Think I'm going to start a blog of my journey to becoming a better muslim.

What else have I done lately, hmm. Watched tons of series. TONS. Also playing games, Mini Ninjas, Monkey Island , Fallout and Batman. I dont't play them everyday so I'm still far from clocking any of those games. But I reallly love games :) Its awesome.

I have one major decision bugging me and I really don't know what to do. Oh and yes it involves a boy. Really sucks, because my aim was to stay away from boys for a really long time. So one day i can just randomly get married, because I'd have a degree and job etc. But now that I'm still young, it can become troublesome and make me really happy at the same time. What a pain. Seriously hate matters of the heart. It's just way too painful. Sacrifices has to made, lots of them and its really not fun. But I guess that 'perfect' person does not exist, so I can't avoid making sacrifices. I'm really scared... and all these emotions are troubling my health. *SIGH*

Well I think thats enough for now.

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Nemo